Love em, Leave em, Give em hell for sure.

I'm living in a world that should only be seen on TV. The sad thing is that most days, I don't hate it. Not even a little bit, not even at all.

She's a very freaky girl.

I'm being soo rediculously dumb but dumb has never felt so good.

Where did I go wrong?

For so long I've been such a huge believer in the saying "Everything happens for a reason." For the first time in forever I'm going against that. I don't see the reason for any of this at all. I didn't learn shit and all it did was hurt. I thought maybe in the end it would all be ok but how can something so great not turn into anything at all? It's been fun but I could have lived with out it.

Liv, Ash, and I had another huge discussion on religion, god, heaven and hell. Ashley put out the idea that this is hell and then we go to heaven. I'm really starting to believe that this is hell..

I swear I'm going into the wrong field. I'm a fuckin actress lately. The curtains about to come crashing down though and it doesn't feel pretty..

I'm tasting nothing but 4 words; please don't leave me.

This weekend has been suuuuch a long one. I had a wedding Friday, Ryan's Saturday, and my party on Sunday. Everything was a lot of fun though. My party was a little dull at first but then we got the water balloons and squirt guns going. I resorted to the hose and owned! Except when Jim destracted me and Shane grabbed it haha. Then my brother and Leif decided that since I was the graduate at the end they had to dump the tub of ice water on me..sooo cold. Everyone ended up drenched. After that the night just got better and better :) just a minor mishap towards the end.

My heart has been jumpy lately. I've been learning not to care and not to expect much lately though and it's been workin out. I baught a new book today that I'm actually pretty hyped to read. I'm having sooo much fun with summer though and I actually have time to hang out with people! I start nannying for Tanner again tomorrow but it's only 3 days a week and I have Mondays and Fridays off. Plus I'll be done by atleast 4 everyday. I'm looking forward to what the rest of summer brings!!

Makin love out by the lake to our favorite song. Sippin whiskey out the bottle not thinkin about tomorrow.

This post doesn't even need words.
The picture says it all.

You'll never leave where you are untill you decide where you wanna be.

Relieved - Determined

I can't say I didn't see this coming. I guess I just wanted to block it all out. I hope this ends up working out for best.

I gotta feel ya in my bones again.

Late nights won't do me right.

Graduated. A mess. Not ready. Regretful. Adventouras. Motivated. All over the place? ahh yuup.

I was thinking about how many things I would do differently if I would've know that it was my last time doing that particular thing. I mean sure, that's how you learn and blah blah blah, but seriously. If I would have known he was at his witts end I would have changed. If I would have known that was the last time we would ever speak I wouldn't have walked out so angry. If I would have known she was going to die I wouldn't have held that grudge. If I would have known that night was the last time I would ever hang out with him and have the title of his girl I would have made it unforgetable. If I would have known that the last time we kissed was quite possibly the last time I would have never stopped. I think I could go on forever about all these things with all these different people.