i just kicked ya to the curb...in my red high heals

it's terrible how much i let my past affect my present. i hate living that way..i wish that i had never been exposed to the awful things that some guys are capable of. i constantly feel nieve and that there's something going on. actually it more just as of late- i need to stop watching general hospital. it puts ideas in my head... if i'm not careful i'll ruin something very special to me.

big things in the job world though. i am now a 'prechool teacher'. scarrry huh? got a nice raise, more responsability, it's awesome. it's so great to be lesson planning again.

it's almost my birthday and i've got a wonderful room booked with a view of the detroit skyline + river. should be fun...!

you can pay for school but you can't buy class

duuuuuuuuuude. how come for years and i mean YEARS i have known exactly what i wanted to do..now i graduate and it comes time to pursue it i'm not quite sure i wanna follow thru. i hate the commitment of education. what if i go thru all of that and get a degree in elementary education then change my mind? i've had so much experience teaching i'm at the point where i wanna know what else is out there and i want to try new things. then i wonder- do i really want to risk letting the fact i never mind going to work go? nooooope =] part of me has such a passion that i have such a huge affect on young minds but the other part of me wants to know is this really it? i wish the nursing program wasn't so extensive- i wanna assist with births and see all the new babyyyy!!

speaking of that- sarah rose is BEAUTIFUL! if you arn't a parent or grandparent all you can do is really look at her but she will be home for easter. i can't wait to get to hold her and make her laugh! making a baby laugh is greeeeeat!

andddd i really love my other half ;) he's a keeper fo shoooo.

everything you touch turns into stone

i'm finnin a post. hah! i guess a lot has changed. i just read thru a lot of older posts and it's funny to read what i have wrote. i have a new car and a new cell phone with a new cell phone number so to most people i guess i have fallen off the face of the earth in a way. i kinda like it...

my job basically sucks right now. i'm more qualified for what i'm getting paid. i got an interview for a secretary position but it's not enough hours so i never called back.

i'm sooooo fucking sick of cold weather! errr! wish i was in florida on the island. i'm very excited for valentines day though! adam and i are going to the westin in southfield. i went there the other week for a mary kay meeting and it was superrr nice. speaking of him- i'm very thankful for that weekend up at my cottage. it's crazy to think of everything that has happend. when i met him up there i never thought it would come to any of this! funny how things work...

i'm also an aunt! well not really but kind of. my cousin pam had her baby. we're all very thankful for her because it was such a rough pregnancy and little sarah rose came very early. she is having an extended stay at the hospital and i will get to meet her very soon. blah i was so upset i missed the birth though. i spend days in the stupid ass waiting room and it happend on the morning i decided to go to work.

as for school- i'm working on getting all of my native american stuff set up with the university of phoenix. i think this will be the best way to just do it all online. i'm in a program to get my bach of arts in elementary education. this way i'm not tied down to one university worrying about transfering credits and if i do end up moving to where ever my school can go with me!

that's about it =]