I told myself I won't miss you but I remember what it feels like beside you.

I can't decide on all these feelings. Sometimes I feel like I'm on cloud nine and other times it all hurts. I feel like everyone has moved on and has new friends but I'm still stuck here wondering what to do..I wanna believe in what I have found and I wanna have faith that it will turn out great.

I can't wait for our getaway in october :)

did i blink? how did we ever end up here?

so i guess i've made the best of attempting a new start while still stuck in the same town. i begged my mom to let me move to florida today and i got as far as "i'll think about it" my brother leaves for arizona after christmas. in the mean time i've left behind what has been my group of friends for about 6 months now. i've been hanging out with my cousin, her boyfriend, and adam a lot lately. it's nice to hang out with older people and get away from all the bullshit. i feel relieved and my life feels a lot less stressful without the boys i was hanging out with. i do have to say i miss them though and tonight is one of the nights it actually hurts. i guess i just feel a little down today. still no word from ferris or central and i feel like just giving up and applying to jackson comm. hmmm we'll see we'll see.

i'm leavin bullshit behind left and right like it's my fucking job. i think i've figured out that you're the lonely one. i'm doing just fine and as much as you wanna act like you're not lonely and hating your life i know you are. you act like everyone else around you is the mess but i've come to realize it's you in fact that is quite the fucking mess. you're pathetic and i can't believe everything i've ever done for you. you're not the person i met a few months ago and you will never be half the guy you made yourself out to be. youo're the biggest peice of shit i've ever met. i feel so much better now that you're gone forever.

nite ;)

I've got my hand between your knees and control how fast we go by just how hard I wanna squeeze. After all of this the streets won't be the same at night. I love what we have. I love what I'm starting and I love what I've left behind. My heart has never been in so many places at once.

I want your body, I need your body, as long as you got me you don't need nobody.

I feel like this is all finally laying to rest after months
im still trying to hold on to silly things.
i guess thats what you get when you let your heart win. i cant force these eyes to see the end, were not giving up. we've got time, nothing but time,and its ticking like a clock. but i wear the biggest smile,because it just feels so good. i never MENT to break,it just feels so good.

if you want to play it like a game, well come on lets play. keep me safe inside, tower over me.
we are broken, what must we do to restore? give us life again.

your always on display, and you cant turn back, becuase this is the only road you know. your just living proof, you cant live the lie.

your the one that doubted it in your eyes. we were born for this, but you built yourself a wall and your going to have to find a way around it, dont run away. i put my faith and trust in you, and you just threw it away. my sorry eyes CAN see, and you'll get what you deserve. i never wanted to say this, but you never wanted to stay. stand up and BE A MAN ABOUT IT, fight with your bare hands about it. why do we like to hurt so much?